The Next Chapter

Go Canada!

Go Canada!

It has been almost 2 months since I raced in London and I know I am long overdue in writing my follow up post. I kept putting it off because I didn’t want to close the door on this experience, this dream, this moment. These past 2 years were a journey of self-discovery, rewarding relationships and a deepening relationship with my husband. I didn’t start this goal alone and I didn’t finish it alone. My husband was there every step of the way. Cheering, encouraging, screaming …lots of screaming when I wanted to give up or doubted myself. Whether I wanted to admit it at the time or not, I needed all of it. We both had to sacrifice a lot in order for me to realize my dream; from time together, vacations as a family, putting off purchases in order to replace tired equipment and his own aspirations. The last few months before the race were very selfish months on my part and he let me. We both have come to understand how our own growth strengthens each other.

Peter and I in London

I also learned that family is more than blood, although I am truly blessed with a loving supportive family. My father flew half way round the world – literally, from Hong Kong. My brother flew out to cheer me on in London. My mother goes to my races, worrying herself to death until I emerge out of the water. My Aunt and cousin have helped with each fundraiser and always gave me the encouragement I needed at the right time. But my family is small and scattered across the globe. These 2 years have shown me how large my family really is. How my friends have become more than friends. They shared my highs and lows, they kicked my butt when I needed it and they loved me for who I am. Best friend doesn’t come close to describing my relationship with my dearest friend. She is literally a second mother to my children, she is my balance and the only person who can put me in my place outside of my husband. And I needed all of them to succeed. It’s when you face challenges that you discover who your friends are, in my case I discovered who my extended family are.

BFF

I think the biggest surprise is what I have learned about myself. Every challenge I faced, every fear and every moment of self doubt presented me with a choice. Do I turn away or do I face it? It’s a simple question but it’s a hard answer. We surround ourselves with walls thinking we are protecting ourselves but really we are hurting ourselves. We are hiding from our true potential. I realized that if you don’t try you never fail, but if you never fail you will never win. Instead, you sit on the sidelines of your own life never succeeding but never failing either. And if it’s easy where is the reward. Strive to fail and you will win! I knew 2 years ago I was a long shot and I really doubted whether I would succeed. Every step I climbed towards my goal I fought for and I came to terms with my self doubts. Two simple words can change your life: I CAN. We all need to believe in ourselves a bit more and we all need to start trying. It’s ok to fail, it’s ok to fall because with each step back you will take two forward.

Fitness Inspiration #2

Now I am ready for the next chapter. While my body heals and I take a break from gruelling training I want to help people realize how much they can do. I am teaching more at the YMCA, I am starting a running group and I am expanding my bootcamps. The most rewarding experience is seeing someone do something they never thought was possible. And THEY did it. Getting to be part of their journey is an amazing experience. I’ll continue to balance training and racing with my family life as my children grow and explore their passions. I am adding a new dimension as I go back to work as a personal trainer. I hope you will continue to follow my adventures. The next big goal will be to see if I can qualify for the 2015 World Championship Team this summer. Wish me luck!